October 2009
9 posts
Super Size Me; Fat Ass
I’m watching the documentary “Super Size Me”** where some guy eats McDonalds for thirty days straight and has a set pair of guidelines for his experiment. 1. has to have everything on the menu at least once 2. only super sizes if asked 3. can only eat from mcdonalds and anything the place sells, including water 4. no excersising at all, that includes not walking to mcdonalds or...
“The weight of the world
Is love
Under the burden
Of solitude
Under the...”
Promises
Now that we’re through
All the things I promised you
I’ll hold to my words down to the tee
I promised you I’d love you forever
I promised you my heart was yours alone
And now that you’re gone
All the things i promised you
Still hold true
Now that we’re through
I’m still true to you
I gave you things forever to keep
Because you promised me
Because you...
“Still can feel you kiss me, love. And you move like water, and you broke like...”
– Matt Nathanson, Still
IF CELEBRITIES WERE YOUR ROOMMATE
Oasis
You: Noel, get out of my bed. Noel: Liam blocked off that side of the room. You: We live in a triple! How can you not find some other place? Liam: Cause he’s a wanker! Noel: Shut up! Shut up! I’m comin’ ove’ there and punchin’ you square in the mouth. Liam: Why don’t you just quit being our roommate? You: Both of you please just go to sleep. Noel: I am...
“Coming home from very lonely places, all of us go a little mad: whether from...”
– John le Carre (via somethingintellectual) (via ryannjoy) (via quote-book)
September 2009
6 posts
Fall Once Again
Its that time of year again when the leaves begin to fall and the air is crisp and cold.
I love it.
Today is a beautiful fall day.
Love
Love. Love is a touch, a hand upon your cheek. Love is a smile, a grin. Love is a look. Eyes with a hunger, for just one person. Love is seeing a person’s faults and still wanting them around. Love is not being afraid of letting your faults be seen. Love just is. It is a state of being.
“You can’t regret the life you didn’t lead.”
– Junot Diaz in The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao. (via edatrix) (via quote-book)
“There is a big difference in what we long for, what we settle for, and what we...”
– (via quotewhore)
Reality Hell
I just saw a show entitles “Reality Hell”. What is wrong with people!!!???
I get it, its supposed to be funny but in all seriousness this is sick.
It is hard enough living the day to day but now we also have to worry about being part of a game.
Punk’d was ok coz that’s fooling celebrities. Celebrities are such a small percent of the population.
Scare tactics was...
I wonder is it bad that I would rather drink home alone than with my friends…?
Some one has to be the responsible one…right?…
But who is gonna be responsible for me…?
August 2009
94 posts
theartofsimplicity:
Have you ever felt like you wanted to cry for no reason? Like every tear would represent a word dying to be said or a wound lashing out.
Yes…all the time…
Music Is My Soul
Today I spent a majority of the day playing my trumpet and my guitar. It reminded me of who I used to be, a person I need to get back to.
I was happy and relaxed…stress wasn’t even in my vocabulary.
Now I’m in bed listening to music and I’ve never felt so confortable. Here in the dark waiting to drift of to sleep to the sweet melodies that play.
People say math is the...
Lately it seems like the world is crashing down around me but still I feel so happy.
I hope this feeling never fades.
Mind at Work
Lately I’ve been pondering life. My life inparticular and what direction it is heading.
Quite frankly, I do not know.
I don’t have a five year plan, I don’t have any plan right now.
All I know is I want to be better than I am. A better friend, daughter, sister, lover, person. I just want to be better.
I’ve been feeding my mind reading nonstop books about life and...
Tears of Joy
Today I finally opened up to my mom about my depression. Spent a long time explaining why I am the way I am…letting her see the world through my eyes for once.
I had to do this coz everytime I hugged my mom I wanted to cry.sadness. But I was also angry that she didn’t see it…whether she couldn’t or didn’t want to it didn’t matter she just didn’t see.it....
Poem #1 from 'My Crackberry Journals'
You brought the color back into my life
Helped my find the things I thought I lost
And now you’re gone and I have to say
I’m ok
I made it through another day
So thank you
For making me stronger
Thank you
For helping me see
I don’t need anybody
To make me happy
I just need
I just need me
You made me feel alive
Feel things I though I never could
It felt like I could...
Life Sometimes...
Lately I’ve been getting shocking news back to back to back…its almost too much to wrap my head around.
BUT
Somtimes we gotta just catch the curveballs grab life by the horn and live it.
Live like there’s no tomorrow
Love like you found your soul mate
And
Laugh like no ones around.
I hope this feeling never fades.
“The most beautiful people we have known are those
who have known defeat, known...”
– Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
“No life is so hard that you can’t make it easier by the way you take it.”
– Ellen Glasgow
“The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it.”
Some people have a lot of growing up to do…and at our age…that’s just sad.
Over You
I promised you I’d never leave you and I never did. You left me thinking anytime you wanted to come back I’d be there. For a while I was. I was there wasting time waiting, hoping, that you would come back to me.
Hoping that you would see I was your knight in shining armor ready to whisk you off into the sunset and give you that fairy tale ending every girl dreams off.
Hoping that...
Went to a bbq today knowing a person I used to date was going to be there. One look at this person and I knew I was finally over them. Sure I still think this person is beautiful. But nothing of what I used to feel stirred in me.
I smiled the whole time. It felt great to just be me worrying about/caring for/ and loving just me for once. I didn’t have to stay by any ones side at all. I could...
Happy
So I’m in a great mood. One of the best I’ve been in, in a while. It kinda sucks coz the happier I get the sadder I will be later. For now I’m just going to enjoy it.
I feel ok.
I feel motivated.
I feel like I can once again face the world.
I feel great.
“Men always want to be a woman’s first love. That is their clumsy vanity. We...”
– Oscar Wilde (via quotewhore)
“Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the...”
– Robert Braul (via quote-book)
I’d give up my right foot for a clove right about now…
Free to Love
Sometimes we think we are free to love, but, we’re not. Not really. We have an image of the person we want (who doesn’t exist) and that’s who we compare every one else to.
Truthfully we always want some one who doesn’t even know we’re alive. And some one wants us and we are blind to their existance.
Stop. Look around. We might find a love we didn’t know we...
Cat Nap Day = Bliss
Having one of those lazy cat nap days.
Just hanging out in my room watching television, everynow and then stretching and getting more comfortable in my bed. Dozing on and off for hours…
…This…is…bliss…
Smile, Beautiful, Smile
Sometimes I forget how your smile brings out the best in me.
So keep smiling, beautiful.
Your smile brings out the best in me because the best part of me is you.
Keep smiling, beautiful, keep smiling.
Writer's Block
I’ve got writers block and I don’t know how to make it go away.
I could write a poem about it but where would I begin?
Talk about the road I’ve been traveling full of sorrow and pain? Like I’ve lost myself with nothing to gain? When I’ve finally reached an emotional meltdown my emotions stopped working my mind was jerking straining for words to explain. But it...
Sometimes all I need is a friendly face and a warm smile to bring me out my funk.
Thanks guys.
It seems I’m always last on the list.
It would be nice to move up a few slots…
In my bed watching the storm going on outside.
Wish I could go outside and let the rain wash over me.
Wash me away and all that’s wrong with me.
Melt me.
A Fucked Up Kind of Funny
My mom always makes fun is my car coz its old as fuck. True it is, its a 94 volvo. No complaints from me though I love my little car. I put so many miles into my car its not even funny. My mom is always getting shit done to her car to make it better. I think some one lied to her:
Today my mom leaves to maryland in her 07 Acura. Guess who’s car completely breaks down? Transmition shot...
Wow…emo moment…
Gotta look on the bright side.
Gotta look forward to the otherside of tomorrow and what the future brings.
Gotta hope I have the strength to get through my dark times…even if I don’t…hope someone sees something in me worth saving…
Invisible
What the fucking fuck!!! I can’t take this shit. What is this hold my broither has over our mother? Why does she always side with him? Its shit like this that makes me not want to have kids. Playing favorites without even knowing it.
Yeah he’s been gone for the past two years but before that he’s always been gone. He’s been gone since 2004 when he graduated high school...
“And all I ever wanted was love, then somebody came around and tried to hurt me,...”
– Lauryn Hill (via sarcasticbitch) (via neevaloves) (via theartofsimplicity)
“When the men betray you - and they will betray you- use this as an opportunity...”
– The Lost Girls (via quotewhore)
Long Day
…Sigh…its been a long day…is it too early to start drinking?…
