Invisible
What the fucking fuck!!! I can’t take this shit. What is this hold my broither has over our mother? Why does she always side with him? Its shit like this that makes me not want to have kids. Playing favorites without even knowing it.
Yeah he’s been gone for the past two years but before that he’s always been gone. He’s been gone since 2004 when he graduated high school and never looked back.
Maybe I sound like a little bitch but I don’t care its just not fair. Maybe if I peaced the fuck out my parents would miss me enough to give a damn.
Its like I’m not even here. They don’t see me, notice me, realize I’m alive.
My ambition is fading. I used to be great at school…they stopped caring I’m not as good as I used to be. I was a great musician but I was always too loud…now I’m barely par. Same thing with writing and all the other liberal arts “crap” I was good at that my parents see as useless. Means they see me as useless. A person can only motivate themselves so much.
I can’t take this anymore.
I need to get the fuck out of here.
I’m invisible.
